Here's a quick translation, with all the expressions cut into simple words, but with the same meaning.
Because I'm starting to go crazy, I decided to be curageous and write you. It is the first time something so painful happens to me. It is the first time I cannot control my feelings. And I feel I'm going to explode if something doesn't happen, anything, just to get out of this state that paralises me.
It happened that some time ago I realised I care a bit about you (when I proof-read, the style sounds funny), and bit by bit, it ended up being a lot. What happened Saturday hurt me, but now that I realized it, it hurts even more.
I want it to go away. And because you are going home, you should know (yes, I know you understand without me translating it to you) that I will miss and I wil long for you very very much.
I cannot tell you in the words of my language what the things I'm writing you mean (because you would understand them), but I think you would be the first person that I would honestly thell them to.
I feel better already
--- i think she means ' i love you' ---
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